Archive for October, 2006

the article of my sorrow

Friday, October 6th, 2006

my dear friends, i wrote that life isn’t fair and
serves as the article of my sorrow. this is a very
crucial time in my life. a turning point of my
destiny. it may be a very big break in my life or the
forteiture of my future. i don’t even have the
slightest idea that will happen to me. problems
keep arising and im in the middle of an open fire. it
never occured to me that i don’t deserve to have a
family. i never wanted a life full of misery. i felt no
soul… i felt no love.. i don’t even know if i am still
alive. i had to make sacrifices but i don’t know
exactly the purpose. i’ve frozen my emotions for
love. i’ve hated stupidity of anykind. people waste
thier time in non-sense. i don’t even know if there
is still genuine love because of exploding
pretentiousness. that most of the time people
worry more of their own asses and not ready to
sacrifice themselves for the sake of others.
happiness comes in all kinds of packages, but the
top the love that is pure is rarely found. i don’t want
to hurt anyone, maybe one reason i want to make
sacrifices. like never want to court any ideal female
that comes my path. and so stupid enough to
make criteria for the best and permanent future
partner in life. i don’t want my children suffer the
very suffering and misery that i am dealing with
now. but to the hell,, who among the people in my
age have the same experience. i can assure
people that they are either dead or has a strong
character that can deal anything that blockes their
way. the fight isn’t over its is just starting. i can
unleash my own jabs and blows. i can kick
someones asses and shove into their faces that
they are stupid. and they should be capable of
humanly decisions. i didn’t know if i can win this
battle. its a very stiff one. but still, im still
breathing. even if i lost i will exert all my energy
and willpower to the fullest before my last breath
halts…

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life is never fair it never was

Friday, October 6th, 2006
to elucidate a totem poles insignia is to know its
history. each faces in top of the other is different.
like every living entity in this world. god made them
as they were. and rationality draws the line
between human beings and other creatures. why
do philosophers thought that animal other than
man isn’t rational? isn’t what they are doing is
dictated by reason? isn’t rantionality makes man’s
judgement, by theorizing and assuming that leads
to other’s uncomfort and misery. man lives in
stupor and ignorance. they always makes
decisions that they regret in the end. inevitable
mistakes that forever since history have been
encripted that creats hazard and destruction in
catastrophic proportions. i never was a
misanthrope, but what i hate about humanity is
thier uncunning emotions and leisurely take their
time to learn what should they have already
learned. commiting the same mistakes all over
again. i don’t say people should be pendantic. coz
playing by the rules and alter them can
revolutionize something. nontheless, people should
be shrewd and alert in everything that they do and
do it right. life is too short and we are all going to
die anyway. but we should be responsible enough
and not stupid enough to live a legacy for our
children because it is our job to enable them. i
may be considered as an adolecent but i am still
ignorant and thirsty for knowledge but as long as
the fully-pledged adults are pleading to suffice their
emotional and bodies’ neediness their lads and
lasses will suffer the consequences. don’t you ever
try to commit the same mistake for there is no
forgiveness for this crises. we are the only cure for
this contaigious life-threatening disease. if this will
continue and pursue it will lead to humankinds own
self-destruction. i believe that life isn’t fair and it
never was… and being unreasonable for reason
that defies the natural laws. given that all the faces
in the totem poles are different. and indifference
creates others grin and others suffer.

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