hari ng sablay

my dear friends, i wrote that life isn’t fair and
serves as the article of my sorrow. this is a very
crucial time in my life. a turning point of my
destiny. it may be a very big break in my life or the
forteiture of my future. i don’t even have the
slightest idea that will happen to me. problems
keep arising and im in the middle of an open fire. it
never occured to me that i don’t deserve to have a
family. i never wanted a life full of misery. i felt no
soul… i felt no love.. i don’t even know if i am still
alive. i had to make sacrifices but i don’t know
exactly the purpose. i’ve frozen my emotions for
love. i’ve hated stupidity of anykind. people waste
thier time in non-sense. i don’t even know if there
is still genuine love because of exploding
pretentiousness. that most of the time people
worry more of their own asses and not ready to
sacrifice themselves for the sake of others.
happiness comes in all kinds of packages, but the
top the love that is pure is rarely found. i don’t want
to hurt anyone, maybe one reason i want to make
sacrifices. like never want to court any ideal female
that comes my path. and so stupid enough to
make criteria for the best and permanent future
partner in life. i don’t want my children suffer the
very suffering and misery that i am dealing with
now. but to the hell,, who among the people in my
age have the same experience. i can assure
people that they are either dead or has a strong
character that can deal anything that blockes their
way. the fight isn’t over its is just starting. i can
unleash my own jabs and blows. i can kick
someones asses and shove into their faces that
they are stupid. and they should be capable of
humanly decisions. i didn’t know if i can win this
battle. its a very stiff one. but still, im still
breathing. even if i lost i will exert all my energy
and willpower to the fullest before my last breath
halts…

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